Recently been trying to figure out why this blog is so important to me. I created it a long time ago just to share some thoughts and experiences I’ve had throughout the years. I haven’t blogged in a while because I started to feel confused about why I even needed it, but still kept coming back to it. But I think I’ve realized that I enjoy this blog since it allows me to release my thoughts, and also organize everything that’s in my head lol. Honestly my head is always in so many places. That’s just how my life has become after living in different places throughout the past 10-14 years. I’m thankful to have lived in so many places, but honestly sometimes feel sad that I can’t be in all places at once. I’ve tried really hard though, especially throughout the past 4 years to spend time in all of the places where I lived. Living now in NorCal, but also going to SoCal often to visit friends and also for work. But then also visiting NY about 1-2 times per year to see friends there, and also fortunately for work too since some of my team is also there.
Again, super thankful for this life of mine, but these days feeling more tired to visit all places constantly. Sometimes I wish everyone lived in the same place lol. But I’ve been thinking recently that I would love for more people to come visit where I live. I was just telling my therapist this week that Peter and I were so used to visiting other people and spending more time in other places, but that was because our former place was smaller and so we liked going elsewhere like to our parents houses and hometowns. But now that we have a bigger place I feel like I just want us to spend more time here, and now we can invite people over. Some friends have already started to visit which has been nice, and we’ve been starting to make more plans for more friends and family to come visit. So yeah it’s going to be okay. Just some changes, but good changes, and thankful for everything we have been blessed with.
Just ranting now lol but yeah just some things I think about. Sometimes I feel like I’m still trying to find where I belong, but I know I belong where I am now. It’s just taken some adjusting since I lived out of state for 4 years, but each year it gets better and I continue to learn more about myself and other people as well.
So yeah. Will probably share more rants here but also apart of me just wants to share experiences I’ve had throughout the past few years and also throughout my life. Also maybe others can learn from my experiences and mistakes to be better in the future, and not have to learn everything the hard way like I did.
Okay well going to end this now. Felt nice to just write a super honest post and get some thoughts out. Trying to make more of a habit of this and not be lazy lol but this felt good so will try to be more consistent moving forward.
Just sharing a pic from our family trip to Lake Tahoe last week ⛰️ and will share more from the trip another time. Good night 🌙
Carolyn 💜
Carolyn Grace 