Today is Saturday, October 26, 2024. It’s been 2 months now since Marley passed, but have been feeling better and getting better each day. Thankul to friends and family for all of the support these past couple of months. I still have moments of sadness, but I’m so thankful that Marley lived such a great life ❤ and that so many people loved him. He will be in my heart forever <3.
Last weekend I had a really big cry though – it was my first time driving to Stockton by myself and without him. I actually drove by myself a few weeks prior, but I had Marley’s ashes and pawprint with me since I wanted my family to see him so he was actually still with me <3. And glad all of my brothers were able to see him, and also more family came over as well. After I got back home to the bay, after being strong the whole weekend, I just had a breakdown. Deep down I was really sad that Marley was not with me, and is no longer able to join me on these 1.5-hour car rides to Stockton and back. But I know I have to keep going. I found myself still clinging onto my passenger seat where he used to lay in his bed. During our car trips, especially during nighttime, I would always reach out and just touch Marley b/c I think he was scared during our night car rides. This time, he wasn’t there for me to hold onto, but I still reached out anyway and that gave me comfort.
I miss him so much, but crying helped. Again, things have been getting better over time.
Carolyn Grace 