One more thing I’ll write about, and not exactly sure how to word everything I feel. But there’s been some stress I’ve had recently from things happening with some people close to me. It sucks, because some of the things people do and opinions they have come out of love, but it’s not always perceived like that. And then it sucks when you think someone comes to you expressing their frustrations about someone, just to find out that person also went back and told said person your opinions as well, and so now you’re involved in it when you weren’t supposed to be. It can make you look like you’re just talking shit, but again another person came to you venting and you agreed with things they said after they expressed their frustrations.
I don’t really know why I felt the need to wrote about this. I guess overall, I just need to remember that not everyone’s perfect, and not every situation will turn out the way you wish it did. It sucks, but that’s just life and we just have to continue to deal with everything life throws our way, and just always try our best in every situation.
I was also catching up with some other close friends last night – basically all of the advisors for my sorority. It was nice to catch up with them, and we also discussed some business that we need to handle. But at the beginning, we all took turns just sharing how we’ve been doing, and one of them shared how someone in her family passed away recently, and how she’s been dealing with it. Felt grateful to her for sharing that with us, and after the meeting I found myself coming back to what she shared.
Then I started thinking, man life is too short to not be enjoying life, or to not be getting along with others for dumb reasons, or also just holding onto anger that you’ve had for a very long time. I feel like I have some sort of all of those things I just mentioned, and in the long run all of these things really shouldn’t matter. We should be spending more time with loved ones instead of arguing with them because you never know what could happen. I know we get caught up sometimes in our feelings and the hurt we’ve felt from things other people have done and said. But in the end, I think we really just need to learn to let things go and move on, and just allow ourselves to be happy and enjoy life.
I know for me personally, there’s a lot of things and feelings I’ve held on to for a long time because they hurt me so much. But again, those things don’t matter and I know I deserve better than just holding onto those things forever.
So yeah, was kind of an eye-opener last night and I feel I’m going to try to be better about letting things go. Last night before sleeping, I actually felt like I was starting to let some things go that I realize I’ve held onto for so many years. It’s crazy, and it’s still going to take more time I’m sure, but I literally felt like I felt some of the stress leaving my body finally, and after so many years. Like I said in my last blog, I’m tired of being stressed lol and now I am actively deciding to not be stressed anymore and to put more of my efforts into being happy instead of being unhappy.
Wow – see this is why I have a blog because I know I constantly have so many thoughts in my head lol. But as always, it feels really good to let my thoughts out. So yeah.
Okay well I’m actually just going to shower now and then watch my show so I’ll be more ready for bed lol. Okay see ya!
Carolyn 💜
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